Alan's Analog - Blog

Where does the anger we sometimes feel over losses - deaths, betrayals, loves lost, etc. come from? Moreover, to whom are we often angry at? God himself oftentimes, no? Why him? Do we hold a certain expectation of him (if we believe in his existence in the first place) because of our preception of who he’s supposed to be?

Whether we be churched or un-churched, believers or non-believers - any one who at least acknowledges a higher power would certainly attach a certain responsibility to this creator for his creations, yes? And when this expectation, whether appropriate or not, is not met in areas such as this, we are let down in some sense or another. Let downs turn to disappointment; and dissapointment then to depression or anger.

This can be, for the true seeker, a time of opportunity to try and discover God more. Every characterisic which we carry are reflections of Him; if we ascribe to the idea that we are ‘created in His image.’ If we feel real anger or betrayal toward God for things that happen to us (are taken from us), then we need to explore what about our expectation(s) warrants an emotional response of anger, just as we would to each other.

And God wants us (I think) to seek what makes Him tick. And learn how things really work. Just as with mankind - the web of systems which we have created (much like God); governmental, cultural, economic, environmental, religious - it is the same with God. He has set in motion a tapestry of structure with which things function in the universe; laws of both physical and spiritual, which are not simply shut down just because a loss or tradgedy happens to one (or many). No more than we can shut our systems down just like that, without having cumulative ripple effects across the entire realm, just because a loss or injustice happens to some or one.

It would certainly be nice if it were so; on the side of man or God - but it simply just doesn’t seem to be the case. Perhaps as we learn just how much it takes to effect a postive change toward the greater good (without sending forth all the possible ripples which can occur, which we may or may not intend), we can better appreciate God himself and his structure and order of things.

-by Alan